Out N About

Doing laps around Eastpoint with my K-Nurse. Stronger and stronger every day

The best part about breaking your leg is…

 Learning how to take a one-legged shite. And then noticing that all the balancing and flexing is giving you some serious ninja turtle washboard! 

Bionic leg

Nurse Amelia wanted to change my dressing today and I was able to get a first look at my leg. 15 staples in the mother! It doesn’t hurt too bad anymore and, according to Nurse Amelia, it’s healing amazingly well. I’m feeling very positive and ready to continue my healing journey towards a (touch wood) full recovery!

 

Discharged in a chair to the rehab sanctuary

Visited by a Choo. My guardian Angel.

 

After convincing the physiotherapist and OT that I was in the safest hands of a loving family, they reluctantly discharged me in a chair.

I am very lucky in that one of my brothers is a trained nurse and my other brother (the one who rescued me) is strong as a bull and has been through his own rehab for serious injuries in the past. He is eventually going to help me rehabilitate in a pool, which is an excellent way to learn how to walk again. Submerged up to my neck, 90% of my body weight will be supported by water. I can rebuild strength this way and this is a future goal of mine.

The real test begins now. I am non-weight bearing for 8 weeks. Time to start wriggling my toes and try to resurrect my leg. I’ll channel Uma Thurman in Kill Bill - “wriggle your toes!”

First step is keeping circulation healthy, lots of blood thinners and keeping my leg elevated. I must avoid clotting at all costs in this delicate stage. 

My next steps will be to get lots of sleep, eating a perfect diet and beginning a regime of small exercises to get this new, metal leg of mine moving. 

The dream is that I’ll be able to start using this chart to build my leg, once I get feeling back in it.

They have me in a leg brace that I am able to unlock and bend to 90 degrees once my leg heals. The plates and screws holding my knee together are going to help new bone to grow and eventually, with time, I’ll have a new knee. I’ll be going for regular follow up X-rays to chart my progress. Eugene Chung is a master surgeon and he completed a very complicated procedure for me. I am lucky that I was able to secure his services. 

The mind is a powerful thing and I can heal my body with it. I believe in mind over matter. I will walk again! 

Update on my recovery and another turn of fate

A remarkable turn of fate happened for me today. 

A kind wardsman came to move me into a new rehab unit today where I’m expected to do very well. We started chatting and he asked about what happened to me. I told him I fell off a cliff and he asked me where it was. I told him it was the cliffs behind the Fairmont hotel in Wentworth Falls. He paused and his face dropped. He then told me that he was ex-Police Rescue and knows the exact cliff I fell from. In his own words he’s pulled multiple deceased from that exact cliff. He describe bodies he's found in that valley as "jellified". He said flatly that I shouldn’t be alive today and asked me if I was a man of Faith. At that point I decided that I had to record an interview as a permanent reminder to treasure my good fortune. My head is spinning. Life has sent me the clearest message I’ve ever had - I am lucky to be here.

Life is fragile - The valley where I nearly died

I was exploring a trail-less, uncharted valley with my bro. About 2 mins after I took this video, the soggy soil ground gave way above a cliff a little further down. I fell 10 metres onto a rocky creek bed in about 3 inches of water. If I was knocked unconscious I would’ve drowned, but by some miracle I managed to fall on my backpack. My leg was badly mangled and I’m facing a 90 minute operation (Update: turned out to be a 3.5 hour operation). I am posting this from my hospital bed where I’m facing a long stay. The doctors expect me to be here a few days at least, depending on how the surgery goes, and then extensive rehab. No guarantee I’ll be walking normally again. I’ll have a metal leg forever now, held together by plates and bolts. I’m lucky to be alive and I owe it to my brother who refused to leave me in the valley. With ropes and extreme perseverance I crawled out of there with his help. Adrenaline is an amazing thing (as is having an awesome brother). There was no phone signal. Life is fragile. I have been on thousands of technical bushwalks in my life. I have never injured myself. I will now never take life for granted ever again. Life has taken on a beautiful hue and I feel nothing but appreciation that I am still here. 

I’ll never forget the look of terror on my brother’s face when he found me. He thought I was dead and at that moment I saw his love for me. 

He saved me and I owe him my life. I crawled out of that valley with his help. It took hours. By the end he carried me to the top where we finally had phone reception. An ambulance soon arrived. They couldn’t understand how i managed to get out of the valley, given the extent of my injuries. They put me on lots of nice drugs and took me away to Dream land. My brother never left my side.

Honeycomb Lungs - Paneye (music video)

Honeycomb Lungs

              ~

The tide sweeps me away

Horizon hides behind

Screens of turquoise rain

I'm going insane

So I'll hold my tongue

Silent red eyes

And honeycomb lungs

My brother nearby 

In a ghost gum cave

Resting our minds

On this quiet blue mountain top plain

(demo 30.8.22) Paneye - The Summer Died

Temple of clay

....And the image turned to grey

...When I wove this sad maze

I reside in the lies of our temple of clay

                  ~

The summer died and the image turned to grey

I made the pain when I wove this sad maze

I reside in the lies of our temple of clay.

(music video) Paneye - killing the most beautiful thing I ever had

Johahn has kindly donated another video to the Paneye shelter :)

Grey Flap by Pist.On (Paneye cover)

Today I was fiddling around on my guitar and I came up with (what I think is) a pretty close riff to Grey Flap. Along with Parole, Grey Flap is my favourite Pist.On song. My Korean Personal Trainer also likes Grey Flap and suggested she film me playing it. She sent me over the video she made and I quite like it. I hope Henry Font sees it one day and that he likes it too.

Johahn directed a video for Eaten By Birds

The talented Korean film maestro, Johahn, my dear friend and accomplice, has kindly made a video clip for Eaten By Birds after I begged her for months.

Watch on YouTube here: Eaten By Birds

Thanks Johahn!

Sunlight and Dismay

 

Sydney

 

Inspiration from megii

I had been struggling with the upcoming album artwork for Three Rings and Ten Moons.

Megii, an artistic kindred of mine, has sent me a beautiful concept for the album cover:

Megii is an extremely talented Sydney-based Artist. Check out her Insta and some of her work below:

Insta

Life Drawing

 

Deepest Depths Sang

Whilst recording a demo for Deepest Depths Sang, a friendly cockatoo decided to land on my balcony and lend me a hand with the vocals.

 

name blotted out forever

 

Emanate From Emanations

 

Dueling guitars with Jay Squire and Paneye

The Glacier I Sleep Inside

 

another rough demo for the upcoming album. This one is about the glacier I sleep inside

I'm just a broken piece of fish - Jam with Will Colvin

I started jamming on this riff and suggested we record a video. Colvin busts out some excellent improvised lyrics. “I’m just a broken piece of fish” is my personal favourite.
 

demos from Three Rings and Ten Moons

When I make new songs I usually noodle around on my guitar a bit before eventually finding a riff that I like. Then I write some lyrics to match that riff and try to sing them in a matching vocal melody. After I've written some lyrics I'll often record a video of the newly written riff and vocal melody so that I don't forget it. Kinda like a visual diary of little song ideas.

I've decided to post 2 videos of the early creation of 2 songs from my new, upcoming album Three Rings And Ten Moons.

These videos are very raw and they show what a new song looks like when it's being freshly figured out. The songs have been developed a lot since they were originally created and you'll hear them in full on my upcoming release.

Will Treffry Associates

It's happened. Meet my new company Will Treffry Associates.

Visit the website here

Artist Management

My talented friend Will Colvin has started a new record label called Safeword HQ which will nurture creative talent in the Sydney music scene.

Will has enlisted me as Artist Manager, in a role where he will pay me to manage a suite of artists who are attached to the Safeword HQ label. I will also be likely releasing future Paneye music on this label.

Please check out the website and show your support: Safeword HQ

https://safewordhq.com/safeword-hq

Here's some of Will Colvin's music when he was performing as Hedgefund:

(Demo) Where Grey Clouds Pass Me By - Paneye

I don't know why

You continue to creep on my mind

By the full moon's cliffside 

I walk the dark coastline

I climbed the mountain

Then you died

I live in the sky

Where grey clouds pass me by

Mumble - collab with Teunis

Mumble by teunis and Will Treffry

Thanks for the support!

Since this blog's humble beginnings in 2009 I have recently experienced a huge spike in views and engagement. I want to thank all of you who have viewed, listened to and purchased my art and music.

According to my stats page (posted below) I am regularly clocking in over 2K individual views every month. My all time views are now up to 122K.

Just phenomenal. Honestly, artists don't like to admit it but we are hugely spurred on by knowing that we have an audience of people that appreciate our work. Thanks all! It encourages me to produce more art and music into the future.

Lord of Circles by Paneye (2021)

 

I've decided to release quite a personal album about my life from 2018-2020. It's mostly acoustic guitar and piano.

1. Eaten By Birds

2. Wishing Will Not Help

3. Lord of Circles

4. As I Wake

5. That Glimpse Of Truth

6. The Hexe I Deserved

7. Killing The Most Beautiful Thing I Ever Had

8. Ketamine To Forget You

9. Diminished By One Hundred

10. Spirit Maze

11. Vestige Of What We Were

12. Life Is But A Fleeting Vapour

13. Year Of Loss

14. Emanate From Emanations 

15. Nilum

Credits:

Words, Music, Vocals by Will Treffry

Art by Will Treffry and Bonnie

Original photos by Bonnie and Will

Water sample on Track 5 by Bonnie

Jay Squire plays guitar with me on Track 14

All recorded on Duxford Street in Paddington, Wentworth Falls in the Blue Mountains and Ocean Street in Edgecliff, Sydney 2018-2020

I'm happy to write that I've collaborated with my old friend Jesse Donald (Jay Squire) on track 14 of this album. The song is called Emanate From Emanations. We used to play guitar together a lot back at Art School and it was nice to strum together again with my old friend.

I hope you'll enjoy the relaxing, melancholic tunes on Lord of Circles. I found making this album very cathartic. 

Lord of Circles can be listened to for free, or purchased at this link:

LISTEN OR DOWNLOAD HERE

I've included a few track previews from the album below:

  

  Wishing Will Not Help

   

  Vestige Of What We Were

  

  Eaten By Birds

   

     Lord of Circles

     

Lyrics

~

Eaten By Birds

Some caterpillars become

Butterflies

Some caterpillars become

Eaten by birds

~

Wishing Will Not Help

Will I

Ever

See you again

And can I

Hold you

Once more 

Before

The end

No

And wishing won't help that

I'd do anything

To go back in time

And be with you

I'm trapped with your ghost

In a photograph

And there's nothing I can do

~

Lord of Circles

I drift in a cold sea

Your hand written notes

Hang on ropes above me

I can not reach them

and I'll never read

About a future

Where you'll be

And I've got to live

With my regret now

And I've got to see

The journey through

And you'll always be

A part of me

And I'll miss you

So I'll move on

Reluctantly

The leaves on our tree

Have turned to brown

And they've fallen

To the ground

I don't want to leave

But I have to break free

Of this sad prison of memories

~

As I Wake

When the wind whistles through the chimes

I long for you

As I walk along the railway lines

I think of you

As I close my eyes 

As I

Lie on the pipes

I dream of you

And then I sigh

As I wake

And have to face a life

That you escaped

~

That Glimpse of Truth

That glimpse of truth

I hate to see

Maybe you needed

To set me free

I was under 

Your dark spell

A beautiful swamp

A comfortable hell

That glimpse of truth

I hate to see

Maybe you needed

To let me be

I was searching inside of you

Hallucinations

Where foolish hope once grew

~

The Hexe I Deserved

You cursed me with

A Hexe that I deserved

I hurt you

Now I'm pecked

By birds of regret

In sad dreams

When I see

What we

Could have been

~

Killing The Most Beautiful Thing I Ever Had

I killed the most beautiful thing

I ever had

We had our own little world

It's now turned to stone and sand

And I'm sad

~

Ketamine To Forget You

Ket

To

Forget

You

~

Vestige Of What We Were

We had a good thing

But I let it dissolve

Before my eyes

I watched you cry

I let you drown

I watched us slowly die

I sat in my chair

And I stared deep down

Into my glass pipe

I watched you cry

And I let you drown

I watched us slowly die

~

Life Is But A Fleeting Vapour

Life is

But a

Fleeting

Vapour

~

Year of Loss

All that I was 

Is no more

A year of loss

Has ended

With a closed door

I became a shade

Of what I was

You took no pity

sitting coldly above

You wanted me 

To destroy myself

And leave me

Forgotten

On an old shelf

One day I will walk to our waterfall

And remember that fine Sunday

When we had it all

Before us

It's now 

Moss

And 

Dust

Thoughts

bush-bashin' with broheim

Star Familia

Brothers

Moon Matrix

Paneye - Impaled by the Daydream

I've finally completed Impaled by the Daydream. Most of it was recorded in Dubai before returning to Sydney last year. I'll hopefully get this released on Illuminated Paths soon

Update: Released on Illuminated Paths;

Please download it from my bandcamp page:

https://paneye.bandcamp.com/album/impaled-by-the-daydream-2018


Front cover


Tracklist;

1. Separation Hums
2. Transportive
3. Impaled by the Daydream
4. Marrow Shrine
5. Carpeting her Cravings with Statues
6. Volcano of Scars
7. Rituals of the Aimless
8. Whisper







Thanks K!

Tomie

Tomie April 2018 by Bonnie and Will

Portrait by Bonnie

Wayward Ocean Caves

Wayward Ocean Caves March 2018 by Bonnie and Will

Miasma

Miasma 03/2018 by Bonnie and Will

Visited by Murky Windings

Visited by Murky Windings (1)

Visited by Murky Windings (2) by Bonnie and Will

Bacchus

I visited a butterfly sanctuary and was swarmed by colourful creatures

Endless Banana Plantation

Memory Studies by Bristles On The Carapace

Memory Studies by Bristles On The Carapace

Download: https://paneye.bandcamp.com/album/memory-studies


1. Tumbledown Villages Line Lagoons

2. The Tropical Coastline Was Colourful And Creepy

3. Patches Of Jungle

4. The Lush And Ramshackle Peninsula

5. Dusky Skinned Woman Standing In The Doorway Of A Crumbling Shack

6. Endless Banana Plantation

7. I Visited A Butterfly Sanctuary And Was Swarmed By Colourful Creatures



Music by: Will Treffry
Album Cover Photo and Words by: Jasper Rice
Vocals and Inside Sleeve Cover by: K


Thanks K.!

Redfern - an old collaboration with a friend

Here's an old collaboration track from 2007 called Redfern. I did the music, Fudge did the vocals.

Dreaming in Blue Forests by Paneye

Whirlpool Girl

Drifting Through The Noon Park by Paneye 2012

Cipher Balcony 2012

Paneye - Remote Summer Clouds 2014 (remastered)

Download: 

https://paneye.bandcamp.com/album/remote-summer-clouds-2014

Tracklist

1. Dimensions
2. Living And Gone
3. I Was The One
4. A Slender Loneliness
5. Moon Boy
6. Before
7. Shadowy Joy
8. Whirlpool Girl
9. Excess Of Tenderness
10. Into The Gray
11. At The End Of A Dream
12. World Of Infinity
13. Neon Angst
14. Wayward
15. Inwardness
16. There Is Another Happiness
17. Awakened To Her Dark Outlines
18. A Marriage Of Caves
19. Under Lakes
20. Leading To All The Living Things
21. Sleep In Parks
22. Sometimes Life
23. Corridors
24. Gray Eyes
25. Remote Summer Clouds
26. Melancholia Is A Tool To Weave Sad Little Spider Webs
27. Walking Home From The Airport

The Alice Tree

In My Haunt 2008

Here is another old track from one of my first demos back in 2008.

Weeping Willow

Weeping Willow by Will Treffry and K 2016

Disembarking From Tentacle Island

Disembarking From Tentacle Island by K and W.Treffry 2016

Wave Graves

Torpor Terrace 2012

blues

Thought i'd upload a snippet of an old bluesy track that I wrote and never got around to recording. Something a bit different from the usual.

Provenance

Desertism will be released in May on the Sydney record label Provenance.

Website: http://www.provenancerecords.com

Horizontal Waterfalls

Here's an old collaboration from 2009 called Horizontal Waterfalls

When I walk all night and I sleep all day

Desertism lyrics

Eyelid Temples

Temples in your eyes
Revealing all of our wide, broken time



I Stumbled Upon Her Ruins

I stumbled upon her ruins
tiny cities in the dew on her cheeks

I stumbled upon her ruins
her private towns that she let me see
that she let only me see

I knew her for just a little while
But I knew her for what seemed like eternity



Watched By Every Gloom

Come along to apartment 815
I'm marooned in the sky

Watched by every gloom
Caressed by every sigh




Passports To Overcast Island

Passports to overcast islands
she's roaming, and I know that she'll find him
she's crying, and I know she'll unwind me

Set her memories free on the clifftop's craggy breeze




Visited By Murky Windings

Visited by the murk
my shirt hasn't been washed in days

Visted by the murk
time ticks on in my swampy maze

Winding on
it was labyrinthine all along

Winding on
you were here, now you're gone



Disfigured Fortune

Disfigured fortune comes my way
when I walk all night
and I sleep all day



Empty Boats And The Vortex

Where do you sail?


Fragile Awe

I saw
your fragile awe
in my empty claws

I saw
your fragile awe
on my dusty floor

Desertism by Paneye

front cover

back cover

notes

Tracklist

1. Desertism

2. Eyelid Temples

3. I Stumbled Upon Her Ruins

4. Decayed Windforms

5. Watched By Every Gloom

6. Passports To Overcast Islands

7. Visited By Murky Windings

8. Disfigured Fortune

9. Calm Eternity

10. Heed The Cycling Idleness

11. Empty Boats And The Vortex

12. Fragile Awe

DOWNLOAD: https://paneye.bandcamp.com/album/desertism

thanks Khat!